Sunday, January 31, 2010

radio where?

i've been listening to radio.wazee for such a long time...since 2001 or 2002, if i remember correctly. i remember long days in the maclab and long nights in the a-level of the reg, sitting with my headphones plugged into the computers, listening to that station as i worked on papers for school. i remember it being the only thing that kept me sane as i sat at the computer entering barcode after barcode during that boring job at the law library. i remember being so angry i couldn't see straight when i tried to play it on my computer at my last job, but it was blocked. but, i could always turn it on when i got home.

always...until about two weeks ago. the stream has been down, and i have to resort to pandora. resort to youtube. resort to my own collection.

it's not the same.

i have a long list of songs and bands i'd never know if not for that station. people nowadays have the luxury of tailoring things like Pandora to their tastes, but even in the early aughts, before such custom musical streams...it was as if i had that luxury already, because the music radio.wazee played so well reflected my musical tastes.

i'm hoping against hope that the maintainer of the station, who has been MIA for an extended period of time, reappears and brings the stream back up. if he doesn't, the internet has truly lost its best radio station.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

finally finishing that thirty-days meme...

...although, for one thing, i sort of let that thirty-days meme drop by the wayside when i left for Berlin, and didn't get around to finishing it. since it's rare enough that i finish anything i start, i may as well finish this meme, trivial as it may be.

Day 26 → Something you consider to be overrated
The Latest And Greatest Apple Product, whatever it happens to be at the time. yeah, i'm still really sick of seeing references to iWhateverTheFuck on my twitter feed today, but it's the same feeling i get whenever they release a new version of the iPhone, iPod, or iAnything. it's no longer cute or special or rebellious to be into Apple stuff. sure, Apple hardware is pretty and packaged well, but it's overpriced. i'm happy with my cranky old Linux boxen, and don't feel the need to follow and buy whatever Apple puts out.

that's not to say i don't have warm, fuzzy memories of certain Apple things. they're just...older things. that Mac 512 my family got when i was three? that was a fun computer, and i still miss it. i'd love to have one again, and love to play Dungeon of Doom for the first time since i was 10 or 11 and that box kicked the bucket.

Day 27 → Something you consider to be underrated
mid-to-late 1990s alternative rock. the verve pipe. matchbox20. third eye blind. the marvelous three. fuel. i could go on and on, list bands all night, but it makes me really sad when people call the bands of this era "faceless". they've been doing that since the mid-90s, and years later, still do. it's unwarranted. their songs had stories to tell, and many of these stories were there for me to make me feel a lot less alone during those teen years when i didn't feel like there was anyone out there who knew what i was thinking or feeling.

...and really, if you don't think this song is gorgeous and haunting, i worry about you.

Day 28 → Something about yourself that most people don't know
this is a tough one, as i'm not exactly good at hiding things about myself. i'm a pretty public person by nature, and even though i can keep secrets about other people, i'm pretty terrible about keeping secrets about myself. those little things about myself, the kinds of things people would generally keep private, just end up being inextricably linked in my mind to bigger or more public-appropriate things, and they end up sneaking out in my attempts to give people the complete story about...whatever facet of myself i happen to be discussing at the time.

that being said, i'll go for something really frivolous of which i was just reminded. "better than me" by hinder just came on my pandora station. i hate hinder, and everything they stand for. but, i really, really like that song. i don't think i've admitted that to anyone, so there you go.

Day 29 → Hopes, dreams and plans
learn as much as i can about systems administration, computer networking, and infosec. find an employer who will take a chance on me as a sysadmin or net-admin. not completely FUBAR whatever aspect of the network i'm building at Shmoocon next week.

never do law again.

work these ideas for musical pieces that are bouncing around in my head into...actual musical pieces that other people can listen to. work the ideas into musical pieces that won't lead people to break the speakers on which the pieces are playing...in other words, into actual musical pieces that other people *will* listen to.

come up for good talk ideas for upcoming conventions, specifically Penguicon and HOPE. (DEFCON is still up in the air--i don't know yet if i'll be there that weekend, or at Maker Faire Detroit.)

not be The One At Pumping Station: One Who Lacks Ideas. not be The One At Pumping Station: One Who Keeps Starting Projects But Never Finishes Them. not be The One At Pumping Station: One Who Wants To Do Server Stuff But Has No Clue What She Is Doing. in other words, start to actually feel like i'm coming into my own as a hacker, instead of being so directionless, confused, and distracted.

get a clue.

Day 30 → Whatever tickles your fancy
...silly hats only.

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sigh.

i've been so bad about writing in this. sometimes i wonder why i even come back and claim that i'll keep using this.

it's not like my life has gotten boring...on the contrary, it has been more interesting lately than it probably ever has been. (note: if you're curious as to some of my shenanigans since i last posted here, i have a few [okay, over 100] photographs on my picasa showing some of my adventures in Berlin for the Congress and New Year's.)

it's not like i've stopped spending time on the computer...on the contrary, i still spend just as much time on these here intertubes as ever.

i haven't even disconnected from the blogosphere; i still read my LJ friendslist religiously. (and even if you're not on LJ, i've either found or made a syndicated feed from your RSS feed, so that's where i grab your blog entries.)

but, either my thoughts and observations are so short that twitter is a far better place for them, or they're so complex that i don't have the time or energy to work them up into full-blown blog entries here.

i still can't let this place go, though. it has been my rant-space, and a way of communicating, since 2003. i can't discount the idea that in the future, i'll want to return to writing more here. i can't promise when...but i can promise that this place is still in my mind.