september has rolled around again...and i have so much at stake at 5:30. yep. trial team tryout.
do i actually feel like my whole year is at stake? no, not like last year. but, i'm nervous. i know i'm going to hate myself for not making it, and i know my odds of actually making it are slim to none. i'm setting myself up for disappointment, and still too stubborn to just back out.
sigh. at least i'm intent on showing up to school whether i make it or not, and not hiding away for three days like i did last year. that will be a step in the right direction, i guess.