Friday, July 29, 2005

should i change my blog name or keep it the same? i've had this name for over two years now, since i started this thing on blogger...and i still think the name is absolutely awesome. but, i've also got two other things in mind that i think would be great names name is just as overgrown-emo-kid as this one but with an old-timey twist (mississippi classroom), and the other is just plain silly, good because i've had more happy material here as of late (the last refuge of the persecuted crack smoker).

maybe i'll change it. maybe i'll keep it the same because i'm just too darn attached to alone with all my wrongs.

advice welcome.

Thursday, July 28, 2005

Drug Dealer Alley: it's the last refuge of the persecuted crack smoker.

just think...that chicken stumping for Drug Dealer Alley!!!!

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i just got dealt pocket jacks.

then i flopped quads...and people started betting and raising into me.

how sweet it was to have the immortal, stone cold nuts. :)
yesterday was my last day at leona's. it was a day...mostly nice tables, a couple jerky ones. but, leona's did something stupid that even they hadn't managed to do to me yet, before yesterday.

they lost my paycheck.

i'm going there today, demanding it, and if they don't give it to me, i'm going to corporate. i don't need to deal with this, but i'm not leaving town without my money.

i've never been so mad at them as i am right now.

Tuesday, July 26, 2005

a really, really long quiz...lifted from mel. i don't think i've done this one before.

(1) Your gender: i enjoy being a girl.
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: bi
(3) Single?: i haven't been single in a long time
(4) Want to be?: nope...being single is fun, but my boyfriend is more fun :)
(5) Your birthday: november 19, 1982
(6) Age you act: i am a twelve year old boy caught in a twenty two year old girl's body
(7) Age you wish you were: i'm happy with twenty two
(8) Your height: five foot seven
(9) The color of your eyes: blue
(10) Happy with it?: they're pretty
(11) The color of your hair: brown
(12) Happy with it?: i'm ready to dye it again
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: lefty...unless it's sports that involve swinging things, and then i'm ambidextrous
(14) Your living arrangement?: i'm subletting a room at 55th and ellis with some perfect strangers
(27) Your family: is kooky
(29) What's your job: i barcode books (through friday) and wait tables (through tomorrow)
(30) Piercings?: none...although i'd love to get my eyebrow redone
(31) Tattoos?: none
(32) Obsessions?: too many to name...i have an obsessive personality
(35) Do you speak another language? i speak some spanish...and i've learned some american sign language, but i'm bad at it
(36) Have a favorite quote?: of all time? no...there are just too many
(37) Do you have a webpage?: you're looking at it, pal.
(38) Do you live in the moment?: generally, yes
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: usually
(40) Do you have any secrets?: a few of them :)
(41) Do you hate yourself?: at turns...but not in general
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: yeah...i write like a preppy twelve year old girl, but at least it's neat
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: the better question is whether or not i have any good habits.
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: either that i'm intelligent or that i'm outgoing
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called? Let's Watch Some Girl Post On Way Too Much
(46) What's your biggest fear?: dying
(47) Can you sing: quite well
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: nope
(49) Are you a loner?: only when i feel like it
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you? maybe
(52) Are you a daredevil?: you bet
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: depends on when you ask me
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: usually aggressive
(55) Have you got a ?: you mean, like what's the meaning of life?, or something like that? or something less profound, like can i have a sandwich?
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? i can't even begin to tell you.
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: maybe be a little less impulsive.
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: love
(59) How do you vent?: cry, talk to friends, write, kick things...depends on my mood
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i'm somewhere in the middle
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: i regret quitting piano class when i was nine
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: it's had its ups and downs
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: screw other people's opinions. most of them are morons anyway.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: my eyes, my smile, and my proportion
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: yeah
(67) Are you confident?: usually
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: francine, from strangers in paradise
(69) Do people know how you feel?: i'm an open book
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: sometimes

(71) Smoke?: eewww, that's gross
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?: occasionally
(74) Pray?: very rarely
(75) Go to church? no
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: almost never
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: you bet
(78) Take walks in the rain?: sometimes
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: i have to talk to my management at leona's, don't i?!
(80) Drive?: no
(81) Like to drive fast?: nope

(82) Liked your voice?: i love my singing voice. i hate my speaking voice
(83) Hurt yourself?: i have a tendency of occasionally banging my head against desks, walls, etc. when i'm frustrated but that's about it
(84) Been out of the country?: a few times
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: one time in eighth grade i ate a concoction of okra, chocolate milk, ketchupm mustard, and whatever else was on our cafeteria plates. i did it to get my calculator back.
(86) Burped?: hasn't everyone
(87) Been unfaithful?: no
(88) Been in love?: yes
(89) Done drugs?: i tried pot once...wasn't my thing
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: but of course :)
(92) Had a surgery?: i had my wisdom teeth taken out...
(93) Ran away from home?: no
(94) Played strip poker: nope
(95) Gotten beaten up?: yeah
(97) Been picked on?: a lot
(98) Been on stage?: i love it!
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath? i've been really drunk...but that's never happened to me
(100) Slept outdoors?: in a tent
(101) Thought about suicide?: no
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: yeah
(103) If yes, what is your record?: 40 hours or so
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yeah
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yes
(107) Slept all day?: until six pm or so
(108) Killed someone?: no
(109) Made out with a stranger?: yep
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: well, i knew his name...
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: of course
(112) Kissed the same sex?: yes
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: yes
(114) Been betrayed?: not really
(115) Had a dream that came true?: not really
(116) Broken the law?: some little ones
(117) Met a famous person?: yeah
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: bugs and stuff
(146) Stolen anything?: no
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: yeah, both
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: more times than i can count
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: not a diagnosable one...but i've had things ::i:: would call nervous breakdowns
(150) Considered religious vocation?: no
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: yes
(152) Bungee jumped?: no, but i want to
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: back when i was a kid
(154) Shoe brand?: dunno...they're some shoes i got off clearance at dsw this weekend
(155) Brand of clothing?: i got my shirt i'm wearing today at the gap...
(156) Cologne/perfume?: never
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: jeans, band shirts, stuff
(159) Wear hats?: on bad hair days
(161) Wear make-up?: almost never
(162) Favorite place to shop?: disgraceland
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: the long dress i wore to the mocktail
(164) Are you trendy?: no
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: are you smoking crack?

(166) Believe in life on other planets?: yes
(167) Miracles?: not really
(168) Astrology?: no
(169) Magic?: no
(170) God?: yes
(171) Satan?: no
(172) Santa?: no
(173) Ghosts?: no
(174) Luck?: yes
(175) Love at first sight?: no
(176) Yin and Yang?: no
(177) Witches?: no
(178) Easter bunny?: no
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: for some people, maybe...but it's an unnatural state
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: what do you take me for, an optimist?
(181) Do you wish on stars?: never
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yes
(184) Still love him/her?: no
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: no
(186) What do you find romantic?: when they make an effort to talk to me
(187) Turn-on?: that might be too much information here ;)
(188) Turn-off?: ditto
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: no
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: grossed out
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: either way, i don't really care
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: i don't care...if i want to ask someone out i do it
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically atracted to you?: yeah
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: some members do
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: depends on the member you're talking about
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: can i take the fifth here? :)
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? my quilt
(208) Are you in love?: yes
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: :) :) :) you better believe it
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: walk along...unless that hot person was my boyfriend, then i'd kiss him

(211) That haunted you?: myself
(212) You wanted to kill?: my manager at leona's
(213) That you laughed at?: this idiot on partypoker who is staying in with nothing every hand
(214) That laughed at you?: the library worker who saw me trip this morning
(215) That turned you on?: well, there's this guy i was on the phone with last night...
(216) You went shopping with? the foof
(217) That broke your heart?: i've never had mine broken
(218) To disappoint you?: i'm really good at disappointing myself
(219) To ask you out?: ummmm...i don't think i've been really *asked out* since that first date or two jon and i went on back in 2002
(220) To make you cry?: i honestly don't remember the last time anyone made me cry...i cry a lot, but that's because i get wound up about stuff
(222) That you thought about?: chris
(223) You saw a movie with?: kevin, cornelius, and meredith
(224) You talked to on the phone?: chris
(225) You talked to through IM?: chris
(226) You saw?: well, i see my old boss' daughter in the d'angelo reading room right now
(227) You lost?: does it count if losing her was more my choice? i wouldn't so much say lost, as needed out of my life.
(229) You thought was completely insane?: me
(230) You wanted to be?: shirley manson
(231) You told off?: this other waitress at work who tried to get herself cut before me despite the fact that i arrived at work before she did
(232) You trusted?: this doesn't make any sense, there are plenty of people i still trust
(233) You turned down?: well, there was this dillweed customer at leona's who tried to pick me up

(234) Smiled?: i don't know...i smile a ton
(235) Laughed?: again...i giggle and laugh a lot, often for no reason
(236) Cried?: i don't's actually been a while
(237) Bought something?: lunch today
(238) Danced?: friday night
(239) Were sarcastic?: you mean there are times i'm not sarcastic?
(240) hugged someone?: sunday
(241) Talked to an ex?: i think i said a terse hello to jon at tim's wedding
(242) Watched your fav. movie?: a couple months ago
(243) Had a nightmare?: I don't remember my dreams
(245) Talked on the phone?: last night
(246) Listened to the radio?: sometime this weekend when i was gettind dressed
(247) Watched TV?: day before yesterday, i think
(248) Went out?: saturday night
(249) Helped someone?: ummm...i don't know
(250) Were mean?: ask the people i interact with, i guess
(251) Sang?: at my desk today
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: last weekend, when i saw wedding crashers
(253) Said "I love you"?: last night
(254) Missed someone?: it's an ongoing thing...i miss him right now
(255) Fought with a family member?: the last honest fight was about a year ago...although it's a constant state of standoff
(256) Fought with a friend?: 2003
(257) Had a serious conversation?: two nights ago
(258) Got drunk?: when cornelius was here and we went to jimmy's
(259) Had sex?: first week of july :)
cheap cheap!

fun fun!

(if you have any idea what i'm alluding to with this little ray of sunshine here, i'll give you a cookie.)
some of my stuff has been sitting in boxes all summer...but i have to pack the rest of it this week and mail it on thursday.

the rest of it is going on the greyhound with me on monday.

i'm actually moving.

i don't know what i'm doing this weekend. i need to figure out my Last Few Things i want to do in Chicago this weekend, and do them. i need to hang out with my friends. i'm wondering whether i want to go Out Into The City one last time this weekend...although i spent all day friday and all day saturday in places other than hyde park (downtown, lakeview, and andersonville at turns) so it won't be a big deal if i don't leave hyde park this weekend. i know i'll be back in chicago rather frequently, it's not that far away from st. louis...but it'll still be strange and different not living here anymore after living here for five years.

other than that...i've come to one of my general problems in blogging here. i have a Big Event coming up, something about which i should be able to say something profound or moving...but i can't think of something to say that's not completely trite. so, i'll end here for now.

Monday, July 25, 2005

cookies for instant bankroll.

thanks to them, i have $75 in real money on party poker.

yay bonus whoring.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

this is one of those horrible days at work that i can't pay attention to anything for more than half a second. i'm only here until 2 today...but it already feels like i've been here all day. it's going to be a really, really long three more hours until i get off of work.

a month or two ago, i was chatting with my boss' boss, and talking to her about my other job, the waitressing job. i told her it was great for people like me, people with short attention spans. she told me she disagreed, that it took someone with a really long attention span to do this barcoding project for as long as i've been doing it.

it's days like today that prove that i'm right and she's wrong.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005


"it seems i've gained the world but i have keep tabs upon this loss isn't wasted time..."

"get over the faithful yesterdays"

"there's other ways to why force us through war"

"can't waste a day when the night brings a make a move and plead the fifth 'cause you can't plead the first"

"all is well and everything's wasted"

"i'd rather say goodbye than live a lie"

"trust in me and fall as well"

"if i can make you love me you're out of reasons to stay"

"love's not what you see between the legs of the majority"

"i won't try to pretend that i can make it"

"fantasy...once reality...becomes such a parody"

"i'm not a failure...i'm just true to myself"

"just give me ten minutes more...and i'll be passed out on the floor...and i've never felt so alright"

"there is something exciting about leaving everything behind"
my job barcoding books is insanely boring. my mental dialogue while i'm doing said job gets extremely moronic at times. i sometimes have complete conversations, either with myself or with some other hypothetical person, in my head. almost anything can start me off on these mental monologues or's the way of sheer boredom.

yesterday morning, i was barcoding books and listening to my minidisc player. in my player, i had my punk rock has some local bands on it, some famous ones, basically a bunch of random punk rock. i've got quite a few ratbag hero songs on there, and when one of them was on, i remember getting a feeling of being really bummed that they had broken up. they were awesome...i mean, you've really got to love a band who doesn't take themselves seriously at all, who writes songs that are basically about twentysomething punk rockers wanting to go out and drink beer and get laid and have a good time. they even have a song about someone getting pissed off at them because they want them to write a song that's not about girls or beer. are they high art? no way. but, listening to their music is a good time.

then, of course, my mind then wandered to a topic rather close to that one...the various, shall we say, encounters i've had with members of that band, back 18 months, 2 years ago. i remember my mental monologue going something like this..."yeah, they're goofy to listen's fun...and i'm not just saying this because i've hooked up with two of the band members...especially since i'm sure none of them remember who i am anyway...they're just objectively humourous."

fast forward about ten minutes. i'm amazingly bored of barcoding books, so i log onto the internet on one of the computers in the bookstacks. i see i have some new was one of those myspace staple emails, the ones that go, "hey, you're a fan of [band]! i'm fan of [band] too! wow, cool!" then, there was another one on there from someone whose user icon looked really, really familiar...not as someone i'd ever seen on myspace, but as someone i'd seen in real life. a feeling of impending irony surrounded me like a cloud of nitrous oxide as i clicked on the title of the message, "Hey Nikki..." (yay for people who can't even spell my name correctly...). the text of it read:

Guess who finally set up an account on MySpace? It's [name of lead singer]. How ya been? e-mail me sometime at [email] if you ever want to hook up again or keep in touch. Hope everything's been going well for to ya later

i was sitting in the library, and regardless of the law students sitting at the study tables, i started laughing hysterically and interspersing that laughing by occasionally uttering "holy fucking shit" under my breath. i guess he didn't "forget who i am"; i guess he just hasn't seen any boobies for a while. i'm clearly not replying to that message. receiving it, especially after the mental monologue i'd had immediately before, was hilariously ironic. but, i've definitely soaked in all the possible humour value from the situation, and i have no desire of ever communicating with him again. it was dumb fun, back in the day...but he was an asshat, then, now, and forever.

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

downtown is covered with all these new dove ad billboards. i saw this campaign on the internet a few months ago, but there's been a lot of talk about them since they've been all over chicago.

the foof says they're cool because the models actually look like they're happy to be there, not dead like waifs.

a red eye column yesterday said they're good because they give women a realistic but slightly aspirational image to look at.

both of these people are right, but i have another reason why the ads rock. waifs aren't drop-dead sexy...and most of the women in these ads are! women with curves, breasts, hips, short, women with actual bodies, are! sure, that reason may be a little shallow compared to everyone else's reasons for liking the ads...but i'm just putting that out there.

i just hope these billboards all stay up a while...and that other companies take dove's lead and put women like these in their ads.

Monday, July 18, 2005

it's been a while since i touched a computer, so this is going to be one of those posts that jumps from topic to topic without any real rhyme or reason.

leona's has been absolutely insane as of late. i thought there couldn't be much more drama...i'm only going to be there through next wednesday, right? well, not so much. i found out on saturday morning that friday night, the new manager (the one that started a month ago to replace the one that got fired) got fired. not only did she have a penchant for cutting the floor when it should not be cut...apparently she also had an unfounded vendetta against one of the waitresses. not only did i hear this from the waitress she had a vendetta against...i heard this from other ones, too. she was sending other waitstaff home and making this one waitress do all their side work, she was making closers roll silverware (something closers do not do, companywide)...and it finally caught up to her since she got canned friday night.

then, last night, i found out some more stuff that had gone down on friday night. (miss a night there, miss a lot, i guess...) they had some secret shoppers from corporate come in on friday night. the server who got them is this guy who works almost every day of the week...not the best waiter in the world, but he shows up a lot. in short, he screwed up the table royally. he didn't card for liquor, he got the order wrong, and he didn't actually charge them for all the food they ordered. therefore, he got fired. furthermore...the general manager (the one bad manager who has worked there the whole time i have) was never once on the floor while the secret shoppers were there, so he got demoted to dining room manager. the "new" guy, or at least the one they brought back to replace the manager who got canned friday, is now general manager...which is ironic because the guy they demoted is still on the floor more often than they guy they brought back. (plus, the guy they demoted doesn't try to feel up waitresses like the guy they brought back.)

then, today, they tried to pull a fast one on me. there were three servers in, and the manager who was there (this new GM guy) was cutting the floor down to two. the guy who got there first had first dibs on getting cut, but he wanted to stay through the afternoon. i was second in...but the manager told me i was going to have to stay, and the girl that came in last was getting cut. i asked why that was going on, and basically threw a fit, angrily telling him that no, i was in before she was, and i need to get cut. finally, he cuts me instead of her. then, the girl who came in after me walks up to me and goes, "you know, if i get cut before you, there's a reason for it...and if the dining room manager had been in, and you tried that, you'd have been fired." i was just like, "well, so be it...i'm here one more week, i don't care." [i resisted the urge to make a snide comment about the fact that she is the dining room manager's sister.]

shockingly enough, there has been stuff going on in my life that has nothing to do with working at that sketchy, sketchy place of employment that we call leona's. my friend came into town from madison this weekend, and we had some fun. friday night, a bunch of us went to jimmy's for some beer. i've been drinking so little this summer...usually i can get drunk without being hung over the next day, but that didn't so much happen on friday night. i'm so not used to drinking that much anymore. was an absolute blast to go out friday night.

saturday was another awesome night out...a few of us went to naniwa for sushi. then, since we didn't feel like going home, we walked over to the river east movie theatre and saw wedding crashers for no particular reason. wedding crashers is an absolutely amazing movie...the funniest new movie i've seen in years. owen wilson and vince vaughn were awesome...and, for crying out loud, you get to see christopher walken play touch football!!! seriously...if you haven't seen wedding crashers, stop reading my blog and go see it!!!

alright...not too much else going on. i may or may not go see the sox tonight...i'll know that shortly, in the next hour or so. if that doesn't end up happening, who knows what i'll do? hopefully not sit at home, since i really don't feel like doing that tonight.

Thursday, July 14, 2005

last night, i dreamt i was one of the last thirty people in the main event of the world series of poker.

i had just moved all-in with pocket jacks, and the guy next to me called me.

then my alarm went off.

i want to figure out how that ends, jump back into that dream much for good dreams.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

so, the new york times last week wrote an article about a recent study on the issue of bisexuality. basically, what they did, was show a group of men (1/3 of them identified as straight, 1/3 as gay, and 1/3 as bi) erotic movies, some of which had men in them, and some of which had women in them. their finding was that the bi men all reacted much more strongly to either the female erotica or the male erotica...based on studying their genital arousal patterns, 1/4 of them had patterns indistinguishable from the straight men,and 3/4 of them were indistinguishable from the gay men. thus, they think this casts doubt on the existence of bisexuality.

it's an interesting idea, but i don't really buy it. i think the methodology is's an interesting attempt, using reactions to erotica, but i really don't think it's the same as studying real-life attraction patterns or responses to contact with members of one sex, the other, or both that they find attractive. i mean, if i had been a subject in a study of women that used that same methodology, they'd decide i was calling myself bi because i didn't want to come out as a lesbian. why? because i don't like men in my erotica...i like women in my erotica. but, that doesn't mean that i can't be attracted to men as well as women in real life. i think, before they can make blanket statements about bisexuality because of the results of a study like that, they need to do more research (or find studies, if they've been done) about people's reaction to different kinds of erotic material and how (if at all) it relates to their real-life sexual identifications and how it relates to what arouses them in real life.

i won't go so far as to say what some people are saying, that this study can only be a product of biphobic motives. i just think the methodology is flawed. it's an interesting question, and i think it's worth study...although i'm fully convinced that bisexuality exists, it would be nice to see extensive scientific study on the matter. still, i don't think any one study can "debunk" the "existence" of bisexuality...especially a study that doesn't take into account anything but the subjects' reaction to erotica.
today, i'm turning in the two week notice at leona's. :) it's such a suck-up little document, really, but i don't's over. then again, i shouldn't be so nice, since they're morons and they screwed my over by giving me only three shifts this week...but oh well. no use causing that much trouble right before i get out of there. drawing up that notice feels good.

other than that, nothing else really going on. trivia was last night...i was an absolute moron, but one of the answers was rather silly and therefore awesome. the question was, what does VSOP stand for on a bottle of cognac? i never really knew...but for some reason, whenever i look at a bottle of cognac, what always ran through my head was...

"Very Special Old Product".

it's stupid, but we couldn't think of anything better. so, we put it. turns wasn't far from true. it's "Very Superior Old Pale", or alternately "Very Special Old Pale". i like mine better, though...and i think i'm going to mentally continue to call VSOP cognac Very Special Old Product, because it's funnier.

tonight i'm going to play a little more poker and surf the web some more, maybe another hour...and then there are games at 6:30. i have been playing so many board games this's awesome. i hope i can find some geeky boardgaming buddies at wash u...although it won't be quite the same, still. it's little things like that that i'm really, really, really going to miss when i move.

Tuesday, July 12, 2005

it's officially done: i've bought my one-way greyhound ticket out of chicago.

i leave at 11:55am on monday, august 1 from the 95th and dan ryan bus stop.

this is all becoming more and more concrete.

Monday, July 11, 2005

nothing particularly amusing to report over the last couple days...but this link from is one of the funniest things i've seen in a very long while.

Saturday, July 09, 2005

dutch boyd: he's a huge jerk on television...but he writes a nice little blog.
i'm back from st. louis, finally...greyhound got me back to town two hours late last night, but at least i was back in time to play games. i've still been home all of a minute since i got back to town...i dropped my bags at home and then went straight to games, and then ended up crashing at my friend's place because the drunk van wasn't answering the phone last night. i haven't been back home yet...i got sidetracked at the library on the way, and i'm now surfing the web and playing internet poker. i have to be at leona's at six thirty...but nothing to do before then, thank goodness. more websurfing and poker, lunch, maybe a nap...something like that. i got up at 8:30 this morning, and six hours of sleep and a venti mocha will probably not last me 'til 2am or whenever i end up getting off work.

i stumbled across this meme somewhere, and here goes nothing. you all know i'm a sucker for music memes.

List five songs you absolutely can't stand from five artists you adore.

1. "kill the music industry" by cold...for a band that's always so emotional and engaging to listen to, that song is a screaming, pandering mess.
2. "broken" by seether. it's the weakest song on disclaimer, and just boring to listen to. it's not that seether is even bad at softer songs..."sympathetic" is a masterpiece...but "broken" just doesn't do it for me at all. and, don't get me started on the amy lee was unnecessary, and made a bad song even worse.
3. "satisfied" by 8stops7...i heard this song before any of their others, so i just assumed they weren't very good...but then i heard the rest of their stuff and realised this song was an anomaly. about the only way to describe this song is...badly done angst.
4. "rain" by breaking benjamin...a rock band did not need to do a reworking of rain, rain, go away. no, no they didn't.
5. "lucifer's stained dress" by videodrone. i usually don't have a problem with vulgarity...but this one's just over the top. plus, it's no fun to fall alseep to this album and then have the crap scared out of me by that woman screeching.

(note...i have completely ignored here artists who are good and released entire bad albums...i'd call that another topic, or at least i'd spend this entire post detailing awful songs from those albums.)

And on the flip side, list five songs you love by five artists you typically can't stand.

1. "we're all to blame" by sum 41. it's like none of their other's really interesting to listen to, and the chorus has a wonderful melody.
2. "like a stone" by audioslave. i'd usually rather listen to nails on a chalkboard than to chris cornell's voice, but it works for this song...not to mention i have a crush on the guitar solo.
3. "girl all the bad guys want" by bowling for soup...that song is silly, it's fun, and it tricked me into liking that band until i heard, well, anything else they did.
4. ".45" by shinedown. that song sticks in my head like crazy...and i can't put my finger on why i love it so much, but i do.
5. "it's all coming back to me now" and "the power of love" by celine dion...okay, so i'm cheating with two songs here. but, i don't like the rest of her stuff--and yet i love these songs enough for them to be one of my two absolute karaoke favourites.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

this is silly.

the coup de grace: "Gravity totally fails to explain why Saturn has rings and Jupiter does not. It utterly fails to account for obesity. In fact, what it does “explain” is far out-weighed by what it does not explain."

i heart parody.
nothing new to report, really...i'm just killing time at a computer lab here at wash u. i went to housing day today and met a couple of incoming 1L's (or, as my boyfriend's friend said..."awww, cute! look at all the pre-L's!!")...hopefully someone will call my boyfriend back and be his roomie, that would be really nice. not as much luck on that front as we hoped for, though.

other than that...we played some tennis after finishing with housing day stuff, and finally after half an hour in the computer lab i've cooled off a bit and don't feel like i'm bathing in sweat. tennis is nice, but it'll be amazing to play when it's seventy outside instead of a hundred. i can't deal with this heat for very long.'s back to chicago tomorrow. i'm not looking forward to returning to work...but at least i have less than a month.

and i have two week notices to write. i am so giddy about those that it's not even funny.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

things are falling into place.

i have a roomie...she's the same person i've been talking to over the last couple weeks, in the apartment she picked out already. she's just as awesome in person as she was on the phone, and the apartment is a great, great place. two big bedrooms (no more hole in the wall bedroom like i had last year and this summer...whooooo!), a nice living room, and a kitchen to die for. the foof is going to kill me, or at least envy me lots and's a huge kitchen with a new stove, a dishwasher, a nice oven, a nice fridge, lots of storage space...and a CENTRE FREAKING ISLAND!!!! i saw that kitchen and started squeaking with glee. i'm going to be doing the paperwork on that place this week...but my roomie has already signed the lease for it since she's moving in this month and not next month, so it's definitely ours. i'm so psyched that it's lined up, since apartments are selling like mad here, and housing day is tomorrow...

i've also been approved for all my school loans. yay for knowing 150% that i won't have to work a job next year while i'm a 1L. if wash u approves money to pay another mock coach, i'll do that...but even if they don't, i'll do that anyway for free, so that's really a nonissue there. the point is i'll be able to pay the bills with my loan funds, and not have to work and study next year.

it's been a nice couple days here so far...despite being so productive and lining all that up, i've still had lots of time to be really, really lazy with my boyfriend. or, maybe not that lazy...i bought a tennis racket on sunday, and he started teaching me how to play tennis. i suck less than i feared, especially for only having been doing this for a couple of days...i can get it over the net, and often in bounds, when i hit it! yay! i think i like tennis more than i thought i would...and it'll be a great thing to pick up, especially since my boyfriend played in high school...and the tennis courts are right in front of the law school at wash u.

other than that...not that much going on. time to figure out my *plans* for the evening. ;)

Friday, July 01, 2005

leona's did a darn good job of pretending not to be stupid last night.

so, i get in, and just out of desperation or false hope or something, i check the schedule book...hoping that my name had been magically removed from the shift i was supposed to work on monday.

my name was scratched out, another waiter's name was written in, and a manager had signed for it.

then, the manager who was in (the generally incompetent one who doesn't ever do anything) handed out fudge bars because it was hot outside.

i got the smoking section...but it was actually busy there last night, and i made good money.

then, around nine or so, the manager left. this would normally seem to be a bad thing, because there was no other manager to take his place, but it worked more smoothly than it's ever worked with a manager there. they gave the head dispatcher all the managerial computer editing powers (discounts, voids, etc...), left it to the bus boy to manage assigning servers side work, and left it to the servers to manage the floor. it worked so smoothly...we should not have managers in more often.

so, i actually had a good day at leona's last night. i also got off that shift on monday...which means i get to go to st. louis on sunday, since i don't have a shift then. i'll be there sunday through friday...getting an apartment and spending lots of time with my boyfriend. :)'s kind of funny to think i'm spending an entire week of my last month of chicago in st. louis. kind of ironic...