today's a rotten day. i'm sleepy. i feel detached. i'm not sure how i'm going to make it through the workday, much less through mock trial practice and the poker tournament tonight. all my after-work stuff is going to be very much fun, to be sure, but i'm just not feeling anything today except for sleeping and idle dreaming, with a little crying thrown in for good measure. i have no reason to feel this way except for maybe lack of sleep. it's just...disconcerting. that's the best way to describe today, disconcerting.
i was so tempted not to go to work today. maybe i shouldn't have, should have just slept. then again, i woke up at 7:30 on my own this morning, and failed miserably at falling asleep between then and 8. even that would have been a failure, staying home and sleeping.
even being awake and disappearing...that might be better?
"this heart is not a broken one
but where have all the colours gone"
by finger eleven