i rang in the new year as an extremely horrible person, and to be honest, i really don't care all that much. this should be scaring me. i should care, or at least berate myself. but, i just have this sense of...not really caring. it's the same feeling i had when i stopped studying physics...i just didn't care, so i left it. but, what do i leave now? my life? that's just not going to happen, horrible person or not i still have SOMETHING to live for.
it's been the shadows, but it's time to take out the bludgeon.