"i'll always let you down
yeah but i don't care
you'll never understand
i've wasted all the time in the world in your eyes"
by The Blank Theory
(i know, i've posted the lyrics to that song in this thing before, but the song is ringing in my head, and it continues to be a good snapshot of how i see my life and many of my family relationships right now. at least somebody gets it...and by somebody, i mean the blank theory...)